how do you keep moving forward? one step at a time? people who tell you that aren't in pain.

bleed mati bleed

incubus - you will be a hot dancer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K7N9iX7G86I

i want to get dreads.

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and in a moment of elation, mati thinks everything could be fine...

i haven't written anything worth reading for the past three years. i have already given up on it. i find thatt there is no point on keeping on doing it. yet for the sake of my own sanity i must.

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Frank by A.L. Kennedy

it is a story about being able to live in the past - to face loses and accept things that has happened. I'd say it was brutal but in reality it was just reality.

I'd like to say no more. but for people who'd be reading this, find this short story and have a new appreciation for your time.

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there's a myriad of things that i have realized and contemplated and internalized over the past few days but none of them seem important now. that's painful. to lose time like you thought you made a good investment by putting yourself into some random thing and to finally realize all is fool's gold. you'd think next time i'm not doing that. but you won't. you can't.

at this point, i must wish that i am the same with all the other people, minding their own business - bringing up kids, studying for the future, investing in the future. that i think is painful.

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i guess i have alot to write about but not in the mood to go type another word.

been reading catch-22 by joseph heller. the book is insane. people ought to crucify people this smart.

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not in the mood really.

simply

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=toMZC9OdfKQ

just when i thought there is nothing left to write about, Malibay pulls through for me again.

i saw naked crazy lady dancing on the MMDA footbridge crossing malibay yesterday. it's one of those bridges that goes over the MRT between taft and magallanes stations.

you know what i have discovered about myself through this experience? i have bad eyesight. i really wasn't able to recognize the commotion until i was really close. yes, i saw a 20's yr old girl dancing. she was jumping. but i didn't know she was naked. of course, being usesero's and bastos that we men and women are, there are people starting to flock towards the bridge. there were people who really stopped to just watch the fair. i mean, this couldn't be better than tv.

so i moved along. i was more amazed at the people gathering around. there are few times in the world when different people seem to have a singular reaction to a common stimuli. naked lady dancing on the foot bridge: check. did some one say cellphone camera?

anyway, few moments as exciting.